Wow, kitty cats.
PeaceBang has certainly been a mouth-breathing space cadet the last couple days!. It felt like it took superhuman effort to host a lunch for 10 colleagues yesterday, and that’s the sort of thing that is usually easy and fun for me. I kept feeling vaguely like I was forgetting something all afternoon, and just felt ungrounded in general. Not anxious, not distracted, just not. quite. all. there.
I suppose some people spend their entire lives in that state, but I don’t and I don’t like it.
I followed the luncheon by stopping by a new Sephora to pick up a few things. Lesson for us all, my dears: NEVER STOP BY SEPHORA FOR A “FEW THINGS” WHEN YOU’RE FEELING SPACED OUT! Ouch, my wallet!
I had the intellectual capacity of a raccoon: “Oooh, pretty! Shiny! Want!” To make matters worse, I got an e-mail message that informed me that Justin Timberlake is now following me on Twitter, which just made the day that much more surreal (I’m sure he has an automatic add-on feature on his account that adds any Tweeters who mention his name, but still. It was hilarious and terribly strange).
Accomplished nothing last night more impressive than eating dinner, stopping by a PetSmart and almost adopting a cat (thank God I was with a friend), then going home and knitting while watching a movie. My dreams were like a Ken Russell movie. The dog and cat huddled close, because they know to do that when Human Mom is under the influence of the cosmos.
Today I’m just grateful that we have an intergenerational Equinox celebration planned for tomorrow. I have a song to learn, and I put together a slide show of evidence of spring for the children’s message. I have a little message for them and a walk-around, all-ages-appropriate sermon to prepare but I’ve already put a lot of thought into it, thank God.
Being what I call a “psychic sensitivo” is a wonderful trait for the ministry except when it over-functions and I feel like an enormous sponge, soaking in all the chaos and yearning in the world. I don’t like to indulge in flights of fancy, but could it be that the earth really was knocked off its axis by the earthquake and tsunami in Japan? And how about the Super Moon? If my cat goes kooky at the full moon, why should I not just admit that it affects me, too? We’re just mammals made mostly of water. We have little tiny tides within us.
So this is just to say, HOLLA, psychic sensitivos! Let me know you’re out there! You are not alone! I’m going to have some coffee and something carnivorous for lunch to see if I can snap out of it. But take it from me and stay the heck out of big make-up emporiums until this phase passes.
I have a bit of a virus, and Lent has hit me hard this year–I watched three law and order episodes yesterday, napping intermittently, and slept until 9am this morning. I’m feeling much more myself, but I can’t help thinking that my malaise is much more about global events and the penitential season than the virus. Once I let myself feel the despair, I felt better.
I consider myself to be empathic/psycically sensitive, but I’ve been under the influence of narcotic pain relievers due to a broken ankle, so I can’t say if my loopiness is cosmically induced or has a more earthly explanation.
The earthquake in Japan did affect the earth’s rotation and shifted its axis: http://www.npr.org/2011/03/18/134658880/Japan-Earthquake-May-Have-Changed-Earths-Axis
Yes. Holla! I am with you. What a gift it is to be able to read a room and pick up on emotions and understand intuitively what many can’t. How glad I am that I feel the movements of the Earth and the pull of the moon and all that kind of thing. But some days I walk through the hospital and I can feel all the hurts all at once and I just want to cry. I stood in front of the Enola Gay exhibit at the Air and Space museum and I felt all the suffering all at once. Saying it’s a blessing and a curse is way to cliched and simplistic, but it is a complicated balancing act.
Let’s make a deal… you stay out of the make up emporium and I’ll stay out of the art supply store until we feel the ground under our feet again.
🙂
Well yes and I try to stay out of bookstores. but short haul retail therapy works
LOL I had to attend a funeral today at which I seriously felt like I had slipped into a Vicar of Dibley episode. The final hymn was even the theme song of the show. Almost lost it. Then went shopping, bought a large steak (I almost never eat beef) and devoured the whole thing wholeheartedly. Would have spent much $$$$ in a clothing store but they had nothing in my size tbtg
P.S. Love this quote:‎”The moment you come to trust chaos, you see God clearly. Chaos is divine order, versus human order. Change is divine order, versus human order. When the chaos becomes safety to you, then you know you’re seeing God clearly.” – Caroline Myss, “Spiritual Madness: The Necessity of Meeting God in Darkness”
My hand is up.
Holla! Very porous… sometimes too much so. It does help with my teaching, though. SO glad to know that I’m not alone.
Despite having given up sugar, dairy, wheat, and processed foods for Lent/ spring cleansing, I am craving nothing more nothing more than a boxed mac & cheese (prolly not real dairy, right?). I’m gonna blame it on the big ol’ moon and the Earth’s tilted axis.
ps Lynda W: Thank you for that *lovely* quote!
Yes, oh yes, and thank you for naming it.
I find it really interesting that I can sometimes be so in touch with others emotions and so out of touch with mine. I’ve been really unsettled lately, to the point of not sleeping and just had a bit of an “aha!” moment reading your post. Thank you for that. I will defer my plans for Sephora.